WITH YOU
I have been here before
would I have thought to be here with you?
because of you?
No
Between two, together, there shouldn't be lies
there are things I'll hold dear, it's fine
I'm taking the good stuff, holding it back
Can't hold more sadness in this heart of mine
And I laughed and joked around with you
and I walked through the river and felt warm with you
shared precious and critical moments with you
I was there sitting in the longest nights of January with you
through the cold, hopeless but faithful February with you
I was the echo in the silent nights, with you
I thought it was a great chance to be happy with you
and somehow I'm thankful with you
Cause pretending or not it felt good sometimes with you
Ask, was it all worth it? It was for me being with you
Tried to save some love for myself
just to end up feeling like if I ever did
didn't want to give a lot of myself
afraid of the feeling that it was going to end
one day
and I didn't want to go through this again
Why did you play with me? I ask myself
I can guess enough things to make my days
Guess I was not enough
Guess you just like to play
Guess I should trust no one
Guess I should not feel at all
Thought I was the one you want
Can't help to taste the bitter taste of deception
Can't understand the reason of your unappreciation
surprise party, cakes, drinks and friends
meant nothing compared to sex
the real reason why this twisted world goes round
we don't grow on trees
but you know you're not making this species any better
by hurting people like this
and is it all that you wanted?
Can't help to hurt at the thought of how many
and how I was blamed for being with nobody
while there was a history going on behind
and once I almost caught one, but I had to catch the one
after giving you or at least with the intention to give you a good day
you went and look for someone else
someone I was denied to days before
for how long will this hurt?
And after all I believed in being with you
I am one here and one there
didn't fake what I felt, wanted to share more I accept
Afraid to be hurt again and here I am
there is more to life to this I have learned
more than holding hands with you
more than watching movies together at nights with you
falling asleep with you
trying to get up early with you
becoming someone I don't like with you
sharing who I want to be with you
laughing at nights with you
calling us by stupid names with you
making up voices with you
all the things I'll hold dear while I was with you
And you're not one to be with one person
and I'm not one to be with the person you are
and I wanted to be that person
I stand to my word of the person I want to be with
A person who is only with me
mind and body with me
like I was with you
almost reaching up my heart
I've learned from the past
and at my age I want to believe I got my lesson right
People is not to play with,
I don't want bodies for a night
I have never wanted to become that
I can't speak for tomorrow
I can speak for today, who I am
I wanted to be with you,
I still would like to be with you
If only truth could come from your heart and deep within you
It won't happen with you
which means I can't be with you
I'm making peace with you
I'm trying as hard as I can to forgive you
but it has nothing do with you
as long as there is soemone else in a bed with you
which is the only thing that cares for you
I hurt myself at the time thinking of you
I'm making peace with myself
by not being with you
until I'm able to say
I forgive you
I worth the time I was with you.
08.07.14
Dave
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