2008
Back to my old self
2008 feels so close to myself
when life used to be new
looking desperately a way
a way to be me and this is how it went
For all the things I did and I see now
It feels so strange to see all that I planned
and it got lost somehow
wanted all at once, no mistakes to be mend
tried to build my world and then had to watch it all go
Back to my old self
feels like going back to the other side of myself
when I had plans with someone to be great
yes, I was definately finding my way
look at all these files, it's like I've changed who I am
Didn't care too much to show to the world
all the great things I wanted to be done
I knew we would be great so I didn't get lost in my thoughts
Living for the day, going home
counting time to go your place, what I considered our home
Don't feel like it was wrong
It's a thing when you are young
wanting to be on top of the world
what was wrong was to let myself get lost
at the end by what I see now I changed only for worse
It's not that I'm not good now
It's not that I can't change it
It's just that how I planned it
was wrong right from the start
cause after we broke up I really left myself apart
Looking at my old self
a younger artist wannabe, building his world, being free
a beating heart focused in someone, in love and calling you the one
wanting to show the world how happy he was
being who he wanted since he was a child
problems at home growing up, didn't mind
wanting to express it all trough art, whatever concept he had
wanted to grow together, not lazy, not bored, not sad
a young person in love with his couple, in love with his plans
2008 went so fast, didn't last
why he had to quit his plans after someone?
it could have been so good
he could have really improved and give a good fruit
he could have chose to follow his good plans
but it didn't last, he didn't last, he died, he is past
2007 so depressing, 2008 such a good place
2009 like going backwards, do whatever to forget
erased the person I liked to be, back in 2008
since then if I look back I don't know what I became
made a new person from scratch maybe, with the worse things of myself
Things I didn't like in me were not there in that good place
I used to like I was evolving then I sent it all to hell
sure 2000's are not coming back, I can't keep restoring
I can't be who I was back in the day
with much less people that I loved I still have what it takes
still can take a chance, still can make that good change
I keep them all in me, memories, people, who I used to be
after all the things I've gone through it feels like it wasn't me
I've been given a face to smile, hands to write to paint,
great memories, I have new plans to make,
not exactly like in 2008, that year was such a good place,
I look back to my old self and say
if not now,
when?
3:44am
02122016
I got a big dream, small world in between
Me and everything I can't do
No really bad day, just okay
I kinda think you sucked the life right out of the room
I know most likely
How I used to be a frail and silly thought in your mind
Don't be unkind
You're so far behind me
But I can see something more
Than the things you try to take
Now, you've made a mistake
Don't you cry
It's mine
I saw the parade, big men must convey
So I'm thinkin' out on my feet
Back at the first page, shut the game, for you, it ain't
Oh, nothing else could be more complete
I know most likely
How I used to be a frail and silly thought in your mind
Call me unkind
You're so far behind me
But I can see something more
Than the things you try to take
Now, you've made a mistake
Don't you cry
It's mine
Dim the light
In your head, in your heart, in your hiding emotion
Where the waters meet
Dim the light
In the head, in the heart, in your hiding emotion
Where the waters meet
But I can see something more
Than the things you try to take
Now, you've made a mistake
Don't you cry
It's mine
IF I STARE INTO THE DARKNESS, I WON'T KNOW WHERE I AM
I HAVEN'T SEEN THE DAYLIGHT SINCE I STARTED GIVING IN
My eyes are falling heavy, my feet are moving slow
2008 feels so close to myself
when life used to be new
looking desperately a way
a way to be me and this is how it went
For all the things I did and I see now
It feels so strange to see all that I planned
and it got lost somehow
wanted all at once, no mistakes to be mend
tried to build my world and then had to watch it all go
Back to my old self
feels like going back to the other side of myself
when I had plans with someone to be great
yes, I was definately finding my way
look at all these files, it's like I've changed who I am
Didn't care too much to show to the world
all the great things I wanted to be done
I knew we would be great so I didn't get lost in my thoughts
Living for the day, going home
counting time to go your place, what I considered our home
Don't feel like it was wrong
It's a thing when you are young
wanting to be on top of the world
what was wrong was to let myself get lost
at the end by what I see now I changed only for worse
It's not that I'm not good now
It's not that I can't change it
It's just that how I planned it
was wrong right from the start
cause after we broke up I really left myself apart
Looking at my old self
a younger artist wannabe, building his world, being free
a beating heart focused in someone, in love and calling you the one
wanting to show the world how happy he was
being who he wanted since he was a child
problems at home growing up, didn't mind
wanting to express it all trough art, whatever concept he had
wanted to grow together, not lazy, not bored, not sad
a young person in love with his couple, in love with his plans
2008 went so fast, didn't last
why he had to quit his plans after someone?
it could have been so good
he could have really improved and give a good fruit
he could have chose to follow his good plans
but it didn't last, he didn't last, he died, he is past
2007 so depressing, 2008 such a good place
2009 like going backwards, do whatever to forget
erased the person I liked to be, back in 2008
since then if I look back I don't know what I became
made a new person from scratch maybe, with the worse things of myself
Things I didn't like in me were not there in that good place
I used to like I was evolving then I sent it all to hell
sure 2000's are not coming back, I can't keep restoring
I can't be who I was back in the day
with much less people that I loved I still have what it takes
still can take a chance, still can make that good change
I keep them all in me, memories, people, who I used to be
after all the things I've gone through it feels like it wasn't me
I've been given a face to smile, hands to write to paint,
great memories, I have new plans to make,
not exactly like in 2008, that year was such a good place,
I look back to my old self and say
if not now,
when?
3:44am
02122016
Me and everything I can't do
No really bad day, just okay
I kinda think you sucked the life right out of the room
I know most likely
How I used to be a frail and silly thought in your mind
Don't be unkind
You're so far behind me
But I can see something more
Than the things you try to take
Now, you've made a mistake
Don't you cry
It's mine
I saw the parade, big men must convey
So I'm thinkin' out on my feet
Back at the first page, shut the game, for you, it ain't
Oh, nothing else could be more complete
I know most likely
How I used to be a frail and silly thought in your mind
Call me unkind
You're so far behind me
But I can see something more
Than the things you try to take
Now, you've made a mistake
Don't you cry
It's mine
Dim the light
In your head, in your heart, in your hiding emotion
Where the waters meet
Dim the light
In the head, in the heart, in your hiding emotion
Where the waters meet
But I can see something more
Than the things you try to take
Now, you've made a mistake
Don't you cry
It's mine
IF I STARE INTO THE DARKNESS, I WON'T KNOW WHERE I AM
I HAVEN'T SEEN THE DAYLIGHT SINCE I STARTED GIVING IN
My eyes are falling heavy, my feet are moving slow
CLAIRE ELISE BOUCHER
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