BLAME


Don't really know how to start
I've been here, it's not the first time
Let's say I'm getting used to this
Still I hurt, still I miss
Feels like a nightmare, a loop
I'm aware, I'm a fool

First I get to know someone
I know somehow it won't work
I block myself all the time
Still got many issues to solve
Like I haven't realized I'm the one
Who's gonna end up alone after all

The thing is I believe when they say it's special 
It seems like I don't but I'm just wearing a mask
All I want is someone to be here no matter what
I wish I could give my all to that but it takes time
Energy and shit that probably I don't even have
I can't be the one with everything they want
No one really is but I really try and try hard

At least at some point I think I'm trying hard
Turns out I'm just messing up, 
Then again I fail,  I wish they could understand
But only family is there to help you stand up
After every mistake you could make, 
They won't set you apart, in general, it is like that

When you don't have that group of people 
To hold your back, to be there, to understand
You search for it, a home, somebody else's hand
You wonder if you'll ever gonna have it back 
You think you'll meet them again some time
You see them in your dreams, you wake up and cry

Cause it's the life you have had to live
And you must feel lucky you're still here
There's a chance everyday, I'm aware of all that
But it feels like endlessly I'll keep on searching
Then feeling deceived, like I'm nothing
Cause everyone has a life, and I could die alone 
Looking for a human who is also alone 
To give each other the strength to keep going
To stand up
I'm doing it wrong 
And I need to
I really need to
I truly need to 
Understand
That. 

Who's gonna make you breakfast when you don't want to wake up? 
No one
Who's gonna wake you up when you're late or say: "hurry up!"? 
No one
Who's gonna help you pay your bills or worry if you eat day and night? 
No one
Who is there for you to speak your mind when it gets dark, like at least to say hi and you know they really expected your call? 
No one
Who cares how you feel and dares to ask you if you're fine even when you are all smiles? 
No one
Who is there in the living room or next door waiting to say good morning, goodnight? 
No one
Who says: "you can come over"  without becoming a burden after some time? 
No one
Who understands this better than I do?! 
No one
But me

As if I was praying 
I've been begging to life to show me
Something I can rely on
Be it a relationship, be it a mission 
But something to get me out of this confusion

And nothing seems to work
Hurry up! Enough thinking! You're late for work! 

The noise, people, like robots, just walk
Running to the bus stop
There's not enough balance in your card
Walk faster, smoke quicker
You're fucked up again, you're late
Give a good smile

Feeling like shit inside 
What could've been a good day
Turned out to be another shit day
I didn't make things right 
No matter how I make it up
It will always look fucking bad
As bad as I feel as bad as they think
But who cares, right? 
I've been through worse shit 
I can handle all that
Never ending excuses make me feel like shit
Like if I could cope with everything
Cause I am and I've been strong 
After all, oh shit all I've had to suffer
Yeah right

Good thing is I can see it from every angle
The poor victim, the sceptic, the one who doesn't give a fuck, the one who wants to help himself to change and all that, the sparkling hope kind of guy,
But when I feel like shit I just don't know 
who I really am, 
I may turn to one of these sides I mentioned before
But is it really a way to solve what is wrong in my mind? 
I'd rather a hug, no words for 5 minutes, an hour, whatever it could take and someone else to care, 
So I could just cry and cry and cry and speak out my mind and let go in real life of these things that won't let me be real and know that I really can do what I want, be who I want, 
It would help me to understand
all these things with a hug coming from someone else's heart, something home like, a hug and a smile
Cause then again I swallow these things alone 
and I hide. 

You're too good
It hurts
Cause I'm wrong
And it burns
Just to know, 
In a hole
Rest my thoughts
I cause harm
You're too warm
Sorry, I'm a coldhearted man

You see hearts
I see stones
You see smiles 
I see holes
It never ends
The pain of heartbreak

I'd say I like you
You'd say you like me more 
Just like the first time 
As it's been before
Don't fall, try not to fall
Run before you realize
That I'm just not enough 
It's not the same for me
Your meaning of love
It passed like a shooting star above

Could be hard
To let go
But you're smart
Don't hold on
It won't end
The pain of heartbreak

It's a warning message 
Probably we won't see it grow
The seed of love,
I have issues, a whole baggage
Don't blame me if it's over
I already knew I was not enough

We can try
Or let go
Before it's too late
It feels good with you
Probably it could end
The pain of heartbreak

Could be real
Could be not 
Don't blame me if it won't 
You knew I was not enough.

3:11am
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Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong and carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way through night and day
'Cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven
Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart, have you begging please, begging please
Beyond the door there's peace I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven

Eric Clapton, Will Jennings


This ain't for the best
My reputation's never been worse, so
You must like me for me
We can't make
Any promises now, can we, babe?
But you can make me a drink

Dive bar on the East Side, where you at?
Phone lights up my nightstand in the black
Come here, you can meet me in the back
Dark jeans and your Nikes, look at you
Oh damn, never seen that color blue
Just think of the fun things we could do
'Cause I like you
This ain't for the best
My reputation's never been worse, so
You must like me for me
Yeah, I want you
We can't make
Any promises now, can we, babe?
But you can make me a drink
Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
Is it cool that I said all that
Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate
Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it?
Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it?
Delicate
Third floor on the West Side, me and you
Handsome, your mansion with a view
Do the girls back home touch you like I do?
Long night, with your hands up in my hair
Echoes of your footsteps on the stairs
Stay here, honey, I don't wanna share
'Cause I like you
This ain't for the best
My reputation's never been worse, so
You must like me for me
Yeah, I want you
We can't make
Any promises now, can we, babe?
But you can make me a drink
Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
Is it cool that I said all that
Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate
Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it?
Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it?
Delicate
Sometimes I wonder when you sleep
Are you ever dreaming of me?
Sometimes when I look into your eyes
I pretend you're mine, all the damn time
'Cause I like you
Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
Yeah, I want you
Is it cool that I said all that
Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
'Cause I like you
Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
Yeah, I want you
Is it cool that I said all that
Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate
Delicate

Taylor Swift, Max Martín, Karl Johan Schuster

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