A PLACE WE CALLED HOME

Every step was taking me farther
From the place we called home
And I refused many times to go
And the day was getting closer
And closer and closer and closer
Until I had to pack our things and go

It broke me to see your papers
And I remembered your face,
Sometimes you had an appointment
And we were late, but we always made it there
If results were ok we celebrated our own way
And you smiled staring at the window

I had to let go of all these things
Where your name was written
Putting all these good old days into a bag
keeping things was only breaking me apart
It's not that I put you into a bag,
But it felt like that and it made me cry,
Attached to the wrong things,
"I love you and I'd love to go back
To the life we had" I thought, all through that night

I guess life doesn't work like that
I had to pick every single thing of our past
Tried to avoid the family pictures
But I had to stop and look back
And go back, and remember, living the past
Filled more than 3 bags with everything you had
Packing never was that hard
It broke me but I couldn't have stopped
I had to leave and I had to swallow every tear
Otherwise I would have never moved on

It all was packed
It was time to say goodbye
To the place where we shared the last time
In a place we called home,
I was ready to go
I had to let it all go
And feel the beat of my heart
Softly speaking to me
"Don't look outside, search inside your heart,
That's where home always was"

And I will never have to leave that one
So you're always with me
Packing was hard, it broke me
But that place is just past
I'm always carrying you with me
I always have, always did, always will
You'll live in my heart forever
No matter where I'll be
The place we used to call home, never was
You have always lived in my heart.

You never died, you moved somewhere else,
I miss our life but I believe we'll meet again,
Please wait for me there.

5:39 p.m.
16102019