THE LAST CHRISTMAS NIGHT FIVE YEARS AGO
Five years ago
at 12 pm
We were not even sure
Which option to take
Would we spend it together?
Would we go at a friend's place?
Probably I wasn't even awake
Sure there are things that I regret
I could have asked you
What plan do you want to make?
Probably you were watching tv
Surely I was thinking about stupid things
Today it's raining outside
It's cute cause it's sunny at the same time
And I'm thinking about you
And all the things that you went through
And how much I love your smile
Your last picture with the Christmas hat
I feel like I can't look at it today
Not today
I rather see the stories in my head
Trying to avoid thinking of all the things that I regret
Sure it was a especial day, I hope
The last Christmas night five years ago
At 8 pm we went to our friend's place
They were opening their gifts and we just stared
We looked at each other and remembered
When we used to do that on December
But we had each other and so much love around us
They were happy to invite us
Thank you for giving us your beautiful smile
It was so pure, it was divine
Sure I will keep it until my final time
Now I miss you in a different way, not like I just forget
Sure there are things that I regret
But I'm glad we spent that day together
Emotions are like the weather
But I'm fine and I can be better
You gave me the wings, you keep fixing my feathers
Fly away way beyond the tallest tree on earth
For me you're not anymore on that wheelchair
Something you never deserved
You always believed on christmas there was a new birth
That last Christmas day when you were fully awake
Left the sweetest memories in me, the cup of hope I take
Your smile hanging on the wall
Your happy face with the Christmas hat
I love it, I love you but today your portrait I can't look at
I am sorry, forgive me, thank you, I love you so much
I have to move on without it meaning an empty goodbye
I'll be fine and I'll always carry with me our last Christmas night.
You're the star that keeps pushing me to move forward
When I look up to the sky
Up wherever I'm at
Merry Christmas my dear Maria, Joe, Zuka, Milky, Emily, mommy and dads,
I love you, I love you all so much
Goodbye and thank you for all those beautiful Christmas nights.
4:23pm
24.12.2020
Cali
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