WHAT CAN YOU SEE?

Dreams, I keep staring at the seems

Shadows, keep me underground

Stairs, where are they? I can't feel

Hell, this is where I can be found

Seeing a future that's so blurry

Dragged to be the person that I was 

There's no way up if you're in a hurry

From hell they keep screaming to go back

It's a blurry vision if I stay still 

From the hole I'm in

Hopeless without stairs to climb in

Demons are the things I think 

Dreams that take me to cloud nine

Shadows swallow them but I want to be fine

I want to feel there is a stair for me to see a light

I feel the need to move out of this hell of mine

Because I'm drowning 

But I know, I know there's a way out

And whenever I've been close to it 

I've dragged myself into the ground

Six feet under into the rainy night 

With thunders and a dark sky 

Waiting for the daylight 

But falling asleep right before it's time

The universe is turning things around

In this nightmare I can hear its sound

The wind is whispering: "go out go out" 

Standing in the mud I ask myself what is this all about? 

I need to go out from the undergound

And I can

But when the demons win, because you let them win

What can you see? 

Can you hear the voices helping in the wind? 

Can you move out of the place you think you belong in? 

When you're standing in the mud

Which it's hard, it's hard to clean

What else can I do? 

I can do more, a lot more but I can't see

In hell you only see the things your demons want to see

I don't want to be buried in this dark place I'm in

Keep whispering dear universe 

I still hear the wind

I don't want you to do things for me

But I'm hopeless and I let them win

I'm breaking free but I'm still chained

I want to let go of this pain

Or  live with it, driving it the right way

For all those things that I'm being held

This is my scream for help

I need a stair

I'm falling, I'm doing things that are not fair

Not fair with everyone around, not fair for me

But when you're trapped in your nightmares 

What can you see? 

I want to see things clear, dreams

Standing in the shadows I want to stay awake

The day can show the stairs I need

Looking forward to say: "hell was a place I used to live in"

But now the rain keeps coming 

Where is the star that shines so bright? 

I keep seeing all the things I was

And I can, and I can

But it takes time to leave this hell of mine

I'm holding on, I can be strong

To stay awake and see the daylight again

I've wandered for so long, in vain

Blocking the one that I can be 

Demons screaming at me

And I wonder if

One day I'll ask myself when I'm no longer this weak

What now? 

What is this all about? 

When the good things come your way

It could be strange 

If you think you use to live in hell

But one day you're free 

Getting all the good you deserve

Without demons breaking your nerves

They kept you locked so you never were free

Without mud in your feet

It won't be a fairytale 

But coming from where you were

You can be giving back to the world

In the right way, a sweet dream

A stair took you out, I mean

Don't you dream to tell your demons

this time you lose, I win? 

In the long road of life, out of hell, being free

You'll choose what you want see,

Looking up to the sky

Or staring at the seems

What can you see?

9:35pm

11.01.2021

Cali