PLEASE ECLIPSE

I've been telling myself 

please keep being strong

I keep telling my friends

please don't get lost

How to fight with the feels

when you feel lost

At night I pray, I stand still

I can't go on

How can I save

what hurts the most? 

I can't escape

Wash it away, 

wash it away,

please

with the eclipse

wash it away, 

wash it away, 

please

with the eclipse

When I try to get high

I just feel down below

When I look to the sky

staring up from this hole

It hurts me with its shine

being alone I belong

Waking up from inside

fuck, it hurts the most

Can't stay awake

all night long

I can't escape

Wash it away, 

wash it away, 

please

with the eclipse

wash it away, 

wash it away, 

please do

with the eclipsed moon

I can't seem to find

a way to feel alright 

the war's inside my mind

the moon just lost its shine

The night is so dark

it shouldn't last, so long

It's dark in the park

Wash them away, 

wash them away, 

these feels, 

with the eclipse, 

wash me away, 

wash me away, 

please, 

please eclipse

Wash it away, 

wash it away, 

please, 

with the eclipse, 

Throw it away, 

Throw it away, 

it feels, 

like an eclipse

like an eclipse

like an eclipse

like an eclipse

please eclipse. 

(and somehow I will find a way

but please just help me universe, 

in this hole state I don't want to stay, 

but please just help me universe). 

2:23am

19.11. 2021

Cali

And you're really crazy, you know that?

You get depressed at the end of a long day

You wanna drown yourself in a strong drink

'Cause the world make ya feel like a Zombie

Kinda feel like you might freak out

Can't stand how things got so fucked

Can't rip a band-aid off a bad break up

You don't know how you're ever gonna move on

Let me tell you somethin', you ain't the only one, nah

Ain't it the way life goes?

Shit hits the fan I know

One day we're gonna kick that bucket

So cut loose

Just say "fuck it"

Forget about the way it makes you feel

Life's too short if I'm being real

One day we're gonna kick that bucket

So 'til then, just say "fuck it"

Didn't get picked, didn't get your big break

Some real prick's rubbing it in your face

Kinda sucks when jealously hits you hard

Like a four-door car and on over your heart

Are you living in a dream or nightmare?

Wanna stand up and scream, what do I care?

Sing this shit like a mantra

Middle finger's up, I got ya

Ain't it the way life goes?

Shit hits the fan I know

One day we're gonna kick that bucket

So cut loose

Just say "fuck it"

Forget about the way it makes you feel

Life's too short if I'm being real

One day we're gonna kick that bucket

So 'til then, just say "fuck it"

Fuck it, man, oh

Let me think about it, nah fuck it

Ain't it the way life goes?

Shit hits the fan I know

One day we're gonna kick that bucket

So cut loose (fuck it)

Just say "fuck it"

Forget about the way it makes you feel

Life's too short if I'm being real

One day we're gonna kick that bucket

So 'til then, just say "fuck it"

Yeah, we're gonna kick that bucket

One day we're gonna kick that bucket

So cut loose

Just say "fuck it"

Karl Gronwall, Jake Rose