BLACK HOLE

Find me staring at the floor
it could all end tonight
or it could not
sometimes there's nothing 
I wish so much for

Doubts are bullets to my brain
and I keep staring at the floor
the past keeps knocking on my door
I'm familiar to this pain

A pain has kept me in the dark
A pain I'm keeping in the dark
and it's eating out my soul
dragged into a hole

Visions of what could be
keep me going through the day
as long as I can be
the owner of my thoughts
as they say
I'm a slave to what I say
no longer declaring
and let everything happen as it may

Find me writing what I claim
I'm familiar to this pain

A pain I've been keeping in the dark
A pain I want to scream sometimes
it's been feeding with my soul
tied and falling through a hole

A pain I'm feeling in the dark
A pain that makes me want to cry
until it goes and leaves my soul
I keep coming from inside out of this hole.

And I'm not waiting for the next time,
I'm fine.

No matter how much I say
"I never want to come to this again"
they call it many names
I call it a way to express
to release the chains
to feel free in some way
I didn't choose to be this way
but I embrace it
come what may
although I don't like this
we all have been here
"there's darkness all around me"
we all have these times
we get tired of bullshit and lies
even our shadow leaves us
in our darkest times
such stupid times
such funny is life.

27.03.2015

"So, if you feel you are in a black hole, don't give up. There's a way out." - Stephen Hawking
http://www.hawking.org.uk/into-a-black-hole.html

"Black Holes & Revelations" - Muse
Super Massive Black Hole
Starlight

Linterna.